Roller Coasters

Have you ever waited in line for a roller coaster at an amusement park? Lines of people weaving through those metal bars that separate the line so they can cram as many people as possible in an orderly line, in a super small space. Everyone excited, anticipating a wild and fun ride. On our kid's first visit to Six Flags they just couldn't wait to ride a roller coaster. Jon and I scanned the map, sure they were too small to ride the big rides. But the Screaming Eagle.... YES! They met the height requirement for the Screaming Eagle with a parent rider. We waited through the long line with the kids chattering non stop about how FUN this was going to be. Will and Gracee were seated right in front of Audree and me. Half way up the first hill, Gracee turned around and screamed "NO!!!!!!" Will looked at me and was too scared to even speak. Broke. My. Heart. All I could do was keep telling them Mommy was right here and hang on.... just hang on and this wild ride will end soon..... and Mommy's here.


This week has been a roller coaster ride full of emotions. I'm pretty sure I'm walking around with the same look on my face that was on Will's that day on the roller coaster. Counting down to our court date, we've had the moving party, a phone call from the kid's birth mom, a visit with her today, FST meeting, another call tonight, therapy tomorrow, another visit on Tuesday, another call, then court. Nine days filled with emotional ups and downs, messages from lawyers.... all of it overwhelming. So, overwhelming I want to scream "NO!" like Gracee did on the Screaming Eagle. But God is here, whispering in my ear the whole time that He's here..... just hold on... hold onto My goodness My strength, My grace..... encouraging my heart and giving me hope that can only come from Him. May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word. - 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17 I'm just so thankful He's there for the ride.

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